2.30 am of 5 feb 2010

now should be the time to sleep, resting myself,
actually i feel tired but i don want to sleep,
within this few day,
read few person blog saying about true friend/ best friend,
in my world,
i can say don have friend that can share everything,
i will keep some part of myself, example my sadness, my feeling,
maybe i cannot trust people or maybe i lazy to say it out ???
recently i have slowly try to express myself to my friends,
i alway call my friends don think too much,
but i was the person alway think too much,
think about pass, present and future..............

打开窗，望着夜空那淡淡的星光，呼吸着清凉的空气，眼前的一切是那么的自然,那么的美好,那么的纯净，在这样宁静的夜晚永远不会有白昼的喧嚣，我不会觉得辛苦更不会觉得虚伪，在这样清凉的夜晚我的心是火热的，我会觉得孤单却不会感到悲伤,只有在这样宁静清凉的夜晚我才会放松下来，也只有这个时刻我才可以做回自己。

valentine day

14 th of february is valentine day ,
but i never have proper valentine with my love one........
nvr got the chance to try how the feel to celebrate valentine day ......
getting supprise .......
this year valentine day at cny ...
probably just sleep at home ... haiz

夜夜夜夜

想问天你在那里
我想问问我自己
一开始我聪明
结束我聪明聪明的
几乎的毁掉了我自己
想问天问大地
或著是迷信问问宿命
放弃所有
抛下所有
让我飘流在安静的夜夜空里
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑, 慢慢的拼凑,
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑,慢慢的拼凑,
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
想问天问大地
或著是迷信问问宿命
放弃所有
抛下所有
让我飘流在安静的夜夜空里
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑,慢慢的拼凑
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑,慢慢的拼凑
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑,慢慢的拼凑,
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
我不愿再放纵,
我不愿每天每夜每秒飘流,
也不愿再多问再多说再多求我的梦,
我不愿再放纵,
我不愿每天每夜每秒飘流,
也不愿再多问再多说再多求我的梦.......................................

22.01.10

I back to UPM almost one month.
This sem, i feel that no motivation to study, tired of study.......
What the reason ?
Maybe now we study just like 'TONG SAMPAH', have to put everything in short time,
after the sem, i feel that learn less........

However, this sem let me getting close to few friends,
Kim Fang, my mushroom mum, a girl that wish to have simple life in this complex world.......
Shek Hui, a girl that will think so much, negatively and positively...........

In this sem,
i involve myself to Yin Zi Music Club,
hope that i can learn new things and getting more friends.......

Within this few days,
i think much about my pass time,
when i was child , was teenages, was study until now...........
if time can back to pass time,
i hope that i can be more dare to tell other how i feel ,
what i really want ......

Last few day, my dad call me and tell me about C.L. secondary school student dead case,
human life is unexpected,
maybe this moment you still at this world, but the next moment you already pass away,
what we can do is appro.. with what we have , treat our parents and friends well.......
based on buddha theory, human will reborn after dead,
but the true we willnot know...
so what can i do is make useful of my life .......

new hair style

just change new hair style ?
it is nice ?

friends

Today happen one thing that make me notice the important of friends.
Sometimes i will heard few of friends say that friendship was a tool, tool to use each other.
It is true ?
As Charles say, friend are helping each other, NOT using each other.
I totally agree with he because if you hate someone, then you will not try to help he/she.
So can say that we just help those are friends or close to us.
Friend that just can share happyness but not sadness are NOT true friend.
When i still study at primary school , can say that i don have friend at all.
Until now, i also have less friends. I know the reason is because of my personality.
When form 6 , i get few best friends,
At UPM, thank god that let me know some much friends,
get the chance to learn and grown up .
THANK

on diet plan ..............

second day of on diet,
very hungry now but cannot eat ....
gambateh
19 more days .....
flight