Thursday, December 31, 2009

31/12/09 ~~~ 01/01/10

31/12/09
go count down at sungai wang with friends,
really happy at the moment,
thank guys..............

01/01/09
reach my room about 5 am of the morning,
after bath ,
facebooking a while then go sleep , wake up at 1030 am .
suddenly feel down ,
i feel that my life is loss of something ?
what it is ?
can any1 tell me ?

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

government service

What the first impression of malaysia government service ?
The answer is ' SLOW, SLOW and SLOW '.
When citizens of our country go to government department, need to wait for long time to their turn.
At university also exist the same problem.
When beginning of new sem, we need to register our courses according to our planning and time table.
The problem exist when the group of specific courses provide by faculty are not enough to fulfill our need.
Example, group for management accounting course should be open for 4 class, but the faculty just open 2 class.
With the problem, students need to waste time go faculty office require open for new class. Sometimes, we have to wait half hour or one hour.
It is the faculty should plan early ? forecast how many students will take the paper and how many classes should be open ?
FACULTY OF ECONOMICS AND MANAGEMENT, it is should be more expert in planning and controlling ? but the fact is no ........
Anything problems is officer of faculty are not well prepared, when students refence to they. They didnt give correct answer to students. Sometime they will just say : " i don know about that" or " this problem not under us , please go for other department".
When you go another department suggest by officer, that department will answer " those are not under our authority, please ask your faculty office".
SHIT, the purpose of form office should able help students but now is give more troublems to students.
CLEANLY SEPARATE AUTHORITY BETWEEN DEPARTMENT - an concept in manegement , but how many government agency that able to do that ?
UPM try to get higher level by ACEDEMIC PERFORMANCE AUDIT that hope all students know that the visions, missions and objectives of UPM. But those target willnt achieve if the service of university didnt improve.
Talk about that, i was thinking about 'JAMUAN' at university.
Within one sem, we can see that those JAMUAN around faculty and hostel level. Those money should be use for other purpose.
Example is improve computer system, buying new book and material at library, improve uspot services, or maybe use to give scholarship to students.
As my opinion, government service was represent our country. So government should improve it time by time.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

back to upm

26 of december , back upm with shyan and eric ,

the first time i didnt sleep at car when back upm ,

thank for Eric talk with me ^^



At sunday , i go time square and sungai wang with friends. Our mission is to buiy some clothes for chinese new year. But we cannot get any nice clothes. Within that day, i buy few products from The Faceshop and Elianto.



Organic Infusion – Rebalancing Face Mask
monday,
time to sing k , ' green box karaoke'.
after that having dinner at little elephant with friends.
tuesday,
go giant with Shek Hui to buy some store for KIOSK ,
having lunch with Ck, his birthday .......
today read one friend blog,
last time i got promise somethings to he ,
but didnt make it for he , really sorry to he .........

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

2010 soon




2009 end soon ,

within this year ,

happen many things ,

happy or sad ,

i really mature much compare last year ............

maybe because of you , i grown up .....

because of friends , i recover from pass experince,

thank ................


at this moment ,

suddenly feel moody ,

because of what ?

maybe is because of time is pass ,

getting older , family more n more important for us ,

sawing mum that sleep besides me ,

discover she getting older ,

work so hard for me , hope me can be good , can be contribute to national ,

born , getting old , sick and dead is the process of human ,

i just hope that i can give better life to my family ,

i hope i can ...........


in 2010 ,

i have few wish ,

1. hope my parent can live with happy n health

2. i can spend less money

3. i hope i can more mature , don hurt other

4. i hope i can improve myself

5. i hope i can make every1 around me happy ..................

Sunday, December 6, 2009

children with adult ......







this cute boy is my cousin son , just 5 year old this year ,
v call he as ' 白仔 ' because he have very white skin ,
yesterday go my relative house ,
me , my cousin n mum bring he go penang time squire ,
b4 v go out ,
he go his grandmum there bath ,
while bath , telling me that my mum promise bring he go where n play what ,
reach there , he still remember what my mum promise he ,
wah , a little boy also know the important of promise ,
how about adult ?
sometime adult easily to make promise to each other ,
but really got how many person will follow the promise ?
i think the answer is less n less .......
children also know the important of promise , how about adult ,
as adult , adult should have mature thinking ,
b4 making a promise must make sure can follow the promise
if nt don simply promise someone ,
but at last , didnt follow promise .......
PROMISE IS BIG IN HUMAN LIFE .......
SO WE MUST FOLLOW WHAT WE PROMISE .... RIGHT ???





Sunday, November 29, 2009

张小娴经典语录

1 世上最遥远的距离,不是生与死的距离,不是天各一方,而是我就站在你面前,你却不知道我爱你。 2 我爱你;为了你的幸福,我愿意放弃一切---包括你。
3 失望,有时候也是一种幸福,因为有所期待所以才会失望。因为有爱,才会有期待,所以纵使失望,也是一种幸福,虽然这种幸福有点痛。
4 世上最凄绝的距离是两个人本来距离很远, 互不相识, 忽然有一天, 他们相识, 相爱, 距离变得很近。 然后有一天,不再相爱了, 本来很近的两个人, 变得很远, 甚至比以前更远。
5 爱情使人忘记时间,时间也使人忘记爱情。-- 《思念里的流浪狗》
6 孤单不是与生俱来,而是由你爱上一个人的那一刻开始。
7 喜欢一个人,是不会有痛苦的。爱一个人,也许有绵长的痛苦,但他给我的快乐,也是世上最大的快乐。
8 两个人一起是为了快乐,分手是为了减轻痛苦,你无法再令我快乐,我也唯有离开,我离开的时候,也很痛苦,只是,你肯定比我痛苦,因为我首先说再见,首先追求快乐的是我。
9 凡事皆有代价,快乐的代价便是痛苦。--《流波上的舞》   
10 爱情还没有来到,日子是无忧无虑的;最痛苦的,也不过是测验和考试。当时觉得很大压力,后来回望,不过是多么的微小。
11 有些人注定是等待别人的,有些人是注定被人等的。
12 缘起缘灭,缘浓缘淡,不是我们能够控制的。我们能做到的,是在因缘际会的时侯好好的珍惜那短暂的时光。
13 曾经相遇,总胜过从未碰头。
14 为什么要那么痛苦地忘记一个人,时间自然会使你忘记。如果时间不可以让你忘记不应该记住的人,我们失去的岁月又有甚么意义?
15 承诺本来就是男人与女人的一场角力,有时皆大欢喜,大部份的情况却两败俱伤。
16 我们害怕岁月,却不知道活着是多么的可喜。我们认为生存已经没意思,许多人却正在生死之间挣扎。甚么时候,我们才肯为自己拥有的一切满怀感激?
17 明知会失去自由,明知这是一生一世的合约,为了得到对方,为了令对方快乐,也甘愿作出承诺。恋爱?一个追求不自由的过程,当你埋怨太不自由了的时候,就是你不爱他的时候。
18 我们放下尊严, 放下个性, 放下固执, 都只是因为放不下一个人。
19 好的爱情是你透过一个男人看到世界,坏的爱情是你为了一个人舍弃世界。--《幸福の鱼面颊》
20 暗恋是神圣的﹐ 要以对方的幸福为依归。 如果有痛楚﹐ 也该留给自己--《流波上的舞》
21 当时间过去,我们忘记了我们曾经义无反顾地爱过一个人,忘记了他的温柔,忘记了他为我做的一切。我对他再没有感觉,我不再爱他了。为甚么会这样?原来我们的爱情败给了岁月。-- 《思念里的流浪狗》
22 只想找一个在我失意时,可以承受我的眼泪,在我快乐时,可以让我咬一口的肩膊 。
23 对於承诺,男人非常慷慨。 男人一生向女人所许下的承诺,多不胜数,几乎连他自己忘了。男人知道,女人的爱情,离不开承诺,没有承诺,就是没有将来
24 最好的丈夫, 是讓妻子享盡榮華富貴的丈夫。 最好的情人是隨傳隨到, 而且每天令我有惊喜。 25 女人在床上留的眼淚﹐ 比在任何一個地方多。 男人在床上說的謊話﹐ 也在任何一個地方多。
26忘记一段逝去的感情、忘记一个已经不爱你的人,那个过程,就像戒除毒瘾一样痛苦。毒瘾发作的时候,你痛苦得全身发抖、身体扭曲、五内翻腾,你恨不得一头撞向墙壁,你倒在地上挣扎,痛哭流涕,失去了做人的尊严。可是,谁叫你吸毒?凡事都有代价?开始的时候你就应该知道。--《幸福の鱼面颊》
27第三者也许是最痛苦的,却不是最孤单的。最孤单的是一脚踏两船的那个人。--《幸福の鱼面颊》。
28大部分负心人的记性都是差劲的。如果他的记性好,记得情人为他付出的一切,记得当天多么甜蜜,他又如何能够忍心背弃她?。--《幸福の鱼面颊》
29要做一个无情的人,首先不能有太好的记性,正如要做一个无义的人,也不能太记得别人的恩惠。--《幸福の鱼面颊》。
30也许,这就是爱情。思念,牵挂,期待,相见,微笑,然后哭泣。--《幸福の鱼面颊》
31我心自有天涯,世界再广阔,也比不上在一个男人的心里徜徉,那就是天涯。--《幸福の鱼面颊》
32爱到极爱,往往变成无情。恨到极恨,往往不再有恨。让我们一次恨个够。-- 《思念里的流浪狗》
33抛弃别人总比被人抛弃好过一点,所谓离别,总是一个走,一个留下,走的那个当然比不上留下的那一个痛苦。-- 《思念里的流浪狗》
34爱情的抉择有时候跟赌博没有两样,你可能赢,也可能输得一败涂地。你决定去还是不去的时候,要考虑的不是你将来会不会后悔,也不是他会不会永远爱你。因为你根本无法知道答案。最重要的,是你爱不爱他,是不是爱他爱到愿意豪赌这一铺,虽然你是个贫穷的赌徒。-- 《思念里的流浪狗》
35悔、悔恨、悔疚。统统不是问题,但是后悔的时间必须要短。无止境地后悔和悔恨,那的确是弱者所为。--《思念里的流浪狗》
36我们只是喜欢一个深情的自己。我可以这么爱一个人,我是多么深情。分手时,我们伤心,不是为一段感情伤心,而是怜悯自己。-- 《思念里的流浪狗》 37什么都有用完的一天,太阳会用完,空气会用完,燃料会用完,精力会用完。耐性会用完,斗志会用完,爱情又凭什么不会用完?-- 《思念里的流浪狗》
38不到最后一刻,千万别放弃。最后得到好东西,不是幸运,有时候,必须有前面的苦心经营,才有后面的偶然相遇。-- 《思念里的流浪狗》
39男人和女人,一旦睡過,就會對對方有要求; 有要求,就有埋怨,有埋怨,就有痛苦 ; 有痛苦,就有怨恨。
40 三十岁前,相信男人口中的理想的,是个浪漫的女人;三十岁后,仍然相信男人口中的理想的,就是个彻尾的蠢女人。
41 为什么要那么痛苦地忘记一个人,时间自然会使你忘记。如果时间不可以让你忘记不应该记住的人,我们失去的岁月又有甚么意义?
42 我们害怕岁月,却不知道活着是多么的可喜。我们认为生存已经没意思,许多人却正在生死之间挣扎。甚么时候,我们才肯为自己拥有的一切满怀感激?
43 我以为爱情可以克服一切,谁知道她有时毫无力量。我以为爱情可以填满人生的遗憾,然而,制造更多遗憾的,却偏偏是爱情。阴晴圆缺,在一段爱情中不断重演。换一个人,都不会天色常蓝。 你遇上一个人,你爱他多一点,那么,你始终会失去他。然后,你遇上另一个,他爱你多一点,那么,你早晚会离开他。直到一天,你遇到一个人,你们彼此相爱。终于你明白,所有的寻觅,也有一个过程。 从前在天涯,而今咫尺。
44 爱一个人,你是会自爱的。
45 当爱情来临,当然也是快乐的。但是,这种快乐是要付出的,也要学习去接受失望,伤痛和离别。从此,人生不再纯粹。
46 忘记是很痛苦的,以前如是,今天也如是。不过,以前的痛苦是因为记不起,今天的痛苦,却是怕自己无法忘记。
47 在你曾经爱过我的那些短暂岁月里,我或许是世界上最幸福的人,只是那些日子已成过去,要留也留不住。
48 人生的大部份时间里,承诺的同义词是束缚,奈何我们向往束缚。
49 如果你開心和悲伤的時候,首先想到的,都是同一個人,那就最完美, 如果開心的時候和悲伤的時候,首先想到的,不是同一個人,我劝你应该选择你想和她共度悲伤時刻的那一個,人生本来是苦多于乐.你的開心,有太多人可以和你分享,不一定要是情人,如果日子過得快乐,自己一人也很好,悲伤,卻不是很多人可以和你分担。 你願意把悲伤告訴他,他才是你最想亲近和珍惜的人
50 男人对女人的伤害,不一定是他爱上了別人,而是他在她有所期待的時候讓她失望,在她脆弱的時候沒有扶她一把,在她成功的時候竟然妒忌她。
51 喜欢的生活是婴儿一样的生活。吃东西,喝牛奶,被人抱着被人迁就,不用担心体重,不用工作,可以随时随地大哭和大笑,没有忧伤,没有牵挂。
52 如果有一天我们在路上重逢,而我告诉你:“我现在很幸福。”我一定是伪装的,如果只能够跟你重逢,而不是共同生活,那怎么会幸福呢?告诉你我很幸福, 只是不想让你知道我其实很伤心。
53 我们总是不懂得珍惜眼前人?在未可预知的重逢里,我们以为总会重逢,总会有缘再会,总以为有机会说一声对不起,却从没想过每一次挥手道别,都可能是诀别,每一声叹息,都可能是人间最后的一声叹息。
54 思念一个人,不必天天见,不必互相拥有或相互毁灭,不是朝思暮想,而是一天总想起他几次。听不到他的声音时,会担心他。一个人在外地时,会想念和他一起的时光。
55 离别与重逢,是人生不停上演的戏,习惯了,也就不再悲怆。
56 不能见面的时候,他们互相思念。可是一旦能够见面,一旦再走在一起,他们又会互相折磨。 57我的身体是属于我的,它不为任何男人而忠诚,只为爱情忠诚。--《流波上的舞》
58 爱情也是一种发明,需要不断改良。只是,这种发明跟其他发明不一样,它没有专利权,随时会给人抢走。
59 暗恋最伟大的行为,是成全。你不爱我,但是我成全你。真正的暗恋,是一生的事业,不因他远离你而放弃。没有这种情操,不要轻言暗恋。
60“你爱我吗?” “已经爱到危险程度了。” “危险到什么程度?” “已经无法一个人过日子。” …………
61 有什么方法可以把另一个人忘记呢?只有用时间和距离。--《流波上的舞》
62 如果没法忘记他,就不要忘记好了。真正的忘记,是不需要努力的。
63 她寻找幸福,然后发现,失望,有时候,也是一种幸福。
64 因为有所期待,才会失望。
65 遗憾,也是一种幸福。因为还有令你遗憾的事情。
66 她寻找爱情,然后发现,爱,从来就是一件千回百转的事情。
67 最能反映一个女人的品味的东西,是她现在和过去爱上一个怎样的男人……
68也许,无情的最高境界正是有情,若非有情,无法做出无情的事。有情的最高境界正是无情,只有对一个人无情,你才会背弃他,爱上另一个人。--《幸福の鱼面颊》
69 美丽的东西大多经不起摧残,譬如水晶,譬如水晶般的爱情。
70 爱,从来就是一件千回百转的事。不曾被离弃,不曾受伤害,怎懂得爱人?爱,原来是一种经历,但愿人长久。
71 最厉害的病毒,是爱和谎言。
72 离开之后,我想你不要忘记一件事:不要忘记想念我,想念我的时候,不要忘记我也在想念你。
73 爱情不是避难所,想进去避难的话,是会被赶出来的。
74 爱情里的障碍偏偏使爱情更吸引。 --《流波上的舞》
75 追求和渴望,才有快乐,也有沮丧和失望。经过了沮丧和失望,我们才学会珍惜。
76 如果情感和岁月也能轻轻撕碎,扔到海中,那么,我愿意从此就在海底沉默……你的言语,我爱听,却不懂得,我的沉默,你愿见,却不明白……
77 爱情本来并不复杂,来来去去不过三个字,不是“我爱你”、“我恨你”,便是“算了吧”、“你好吗?”、“对不起”。
78 相爱却不能相恋,相恋却不相爱。
79 我也相信爱可以排除万难,只是,万难之后,又有万难。这是我更相信的。
80 你的心就是我的海角和天涯,我不能去得更远。我们此生共赴天涯海角,不是游走半个地球,而是人间相伴。
81 放弃一个很爱你的人并不痛苦;放弃一个你很爱的人,那才痛苦。爱上一个不爱你的人,那是同样痛苦。-- 《思念里的流浪狗》
82 爱情是风花雪月的事,失意的人是玩不起的。
83 我以为爱情可以克服一切,谁知道她有时毫无力量。我以为爱情可以填满人生的遗憾,然而,制造更多遗憾的,却偏偏是爱情。阴晴圆缺,在一段爱情中不断重演。换一个人,都不会天色常蓝。
84 同一个人,是没法给你相同的痛苦的。当他重复地伤害你,那个伤口已经习惯了,感觉已经麻木了,无论在给他伤害多少次,也远远不如第一次受的伤那么痛了。
85 爱情,原来是含笑饮毒酒。
86 爱一个人很难,放弃自己心爱的人更难。
87 我们也许可以同时爱两个人,又被两个人所爱。遗憾的是,我们只能跟其中一个厮守到老。--《流波上的舞》
88 爱上一个人的时候,总会有点害怕,怕得到他,怕失掉他。-- 《思念里的流浪狗》
89 你曾经不被人所爱,你才会珍惜将来那个爱你的人。
90 因为爱你,我更自爱。因为爱你,我知道自己的存在。因为爱你,我在成长。因为爱你,我对痛苦和快乐都有了深刻的感受。因为爱你我才知道人生有许多无法满足的事。--《悬浮在空中的吻》
91 狗不会瘦,因为它不会思念。人会瘦,因为他思念着别人。人总是被思念折磨,在思 念里做一头可怜的流浪狗。-- 《思念里的流浪狗》
92 没有回忆的人生,未免苍白了点。--《流波上的舞》
93 爱火,还是不应该重燃的,重燃了,从前那些美丽的回忆也会化为乌有。如果我们没有重聚,也许我偕带着他深深的思念活着,直到肉体衰朽。可是,这一刻,我却恨他.所有的美好日子,已经远远一去不回了。
94 深情是我担不起的重担,情话只是偶然兑现的谎言。
95 别离,是为了重聚。
96 寂寞的人,感冒会拖得特别的久,因为她自己也不想痊愈!--《荷包里的单人床》
97 女人放弃一个跟不上她的男人,是有志气。男人放弃一个跟不上他的女人,则是无义气。
98 清醒一点吧,世上没有未完的事,只有未死的心 99 一个人,只要不害怕失去,譬如不害怕失去尊严,那就什么事都做得出来
100 当你发现人生的痛苦和荒谬是那么当然,你应该知道眼泪不是对付它的最好方法--《流波上的舞》 附加
101爱情要完结的时候自会完结,到时候,你不想画句号也不行。--《悬浮在空中的吻》
102爱情使我们自以为可以改变命运。--《流波上的舞》
103男人会愿意承认自己不懂女人,但是有三样东西,男人是绝对不肯承认自己不懂的,那是性、功夫、足球。--《幸福の鱼面颊》
104男人的肩膀和怀抱,随时可以慷慨就义;女人的肩膀和怀抱却是爱情,只能留给她所爱的人。 迷恋一个人,就像中了魔一样,不由自主,再怎么聪明的人,也会不惜一切掏空自己所有感情,一旦醒来,已经没有剩余的感情了,变成无情是很理所当然的事。--《幸福の鱼面颊》 105男人从来不会怀疑女人到底爱他还是爱他的身体,如果她爱他而不爱他的身体,他才真的难过。--《幸福の鱼面颊》
106当你疯狂地爱着一个人而所有人都说你是错的,你不必相信自己是对的。错又何妨?当你离开一个人而所有人都说你是错的,你必须相信自己是对的。错了又怎样?已经不可能回头。--《幸福の鱼面颊》
107年轻的好处,是我们相信人会改变,起码我们可以用爱去改变对方。年轻的悲哀,也是我们相信人会改变。--《幸福の鱼面颊》

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

性与爱……

性与爱…… 
对于十几二十岁的年轻男女,性是一种充满神秘感的事物… 
也是这个年龄最容易因一时冲动而偷食禁果。 
在我还是中四生时,这亲眼目睹一位好友因此而步入教堂,结婚生子。
青春年华就这样没了…… 
我也曾经想过“性与爱”的问题,它们是一体还是分开的?
曾经听过这样一句话:“性是人类须求之一,性与爱当然可以分开…”,
你们认同? 
曾经年小的我对于性也充满幻想,后来发现没了爱的性是无意义的…… 
没性就没爱吗?”,这句话从一位妻子告诉渴望性爱的丈夫,
当时看到就一幕的我,顿时流下眼泪。 
对,难道没性就没爱吗?? 
在爱情里,性尤如购物时的附属品,人们所追求的是爱情的本质而不是性爱的一切…… 
在我朋友当时有一位对性冷感,也许像他一样就能追求最朴素的爱情。 
一时的冲动,而伤害心爱的人最不值得的…… 
以上是我个人的想法以及以往的经验,如有任何想法,欢迎留下留言…

Monday, November 16, 2009

爱的发声练习



昨天看了'爱的发声练习'这部电影,

故事里的主角(大S)与三个男生的感情。初恋情人,中年情人于与年轻情人。

这部电影表达了女人在不同年龄的段层,对爱情的争执。

在故事的结尾,女主角并没有和任何一个男方在一起。

人们总是对爱情充满期待,希望能找到条件优良的另一半。

但是到最后发现自己所追求的并不是所谓的条件,也许只是追求平静的生活。

曾经有朋友告诉我,¨爱情就是要精彩″,

当时的我也和这位好友一同说些只在童话里出现的爱情故事。

可是后来的我发现,不管只爱情还是友情,都是要慢慢加温的。

爱情就像煮水,太大火会把水烧干,容器烧坏;只有慢火,慢慢的烧,加温,才能持久……

Sunday, November 15, 2009




'


第一次用中文写部落格,原因是我的中文拼音并不好,只能用笔画来写。


时常有朋友说身为华人的我并不会运用拼音是一件多可笑的事,有时也后悔为何当初不好好学习。


-黄明泰,自认并不是什么了不起的人物.


样貌,身形,家庭,学业并不出众.也许就是比其他人多几份运气,从小有家人疼爱. 


也许也是因为这点造就了今天的我. 


从来不会勇于面对自己真正感受的我. 
之前看了败犬女王
,感觉自己和女主角有几份相似. 


从以前到现在,从不会表达自己,有时心里想说些好话,可是在人面前就说出另一般话. 


事后后悔又不敢和别人道歉,好厌恶这样的自己,对自己,家人,朋友都是一样. 



表面上开开心心的我
, 其实也有孤寂的时候. 


有时觉得好像只有自己一个人在这五花八门的世界独身做战. 


曾经以为可以一个人生活的我,后来才发现原来其实内心多么的渴望友情与亲情. 


有时,我会大吃大喝,其实我也懂得这样对身体不好,可是这样做可认我暂时忘掉问题与烦恼. 



前几天看了2012这部电影,故事里的人们为了自己的生存而不顾他人的生死,也许这就是人们所说的人不为已,天诛地灭.不过,人类不是应互相帮助吗? 


人类与动物的分别不就是人类是有思想,能分析对与错吗? 


可是最近看到的新闻都显露了人性恶劣的一面,这样的话,人类与动物有何分别? 


人们网网为了自己的利益而伤害身边的人,也许这世界上像刘三好的人少之又少了. 


在感情上,曾经有几段恋情,从一个不懂世故的我到今天的我,经过了许多风雨.


曾经以为感情很简单,只要二小无猜就能永远在一起,发现原来感情上并没有谁对谁错,只有爱与不爱. 


这几天身边有个朋友因感情事而做傻事, 劝他安慰他骂他都无济于事. 


想到当初自己还不是一样傻,差点就不世上了. 


自已又有什么资格说别人呢??


Tuesday, November 10, 2009

10/11/09

dono why this few days, no mood to study .....
it is because near holiday ??
really lazy to study lol
now study just for exam ...... feel like i am EXAM MACHINE
quiz , first test , mid term until final .....
it is the mark represent all ??
it is 'A' represent the quality of a 'A' student ?
when study at university ,
i disclosure that effort not always equal to outcome ......
some students study very hard just get 'A'
but some studens get 'A' because of tips .....
it is fair ???
or maybe different lecturer ,
easy one or straight one ........
really feel that want to rest a long time ......
can read book that i like ,
study for knowledge .......
but that is students life ,,,,,
what can do ???
just FOLLOW THE RULES OF THE GAMES

Thursday, November 5, 2009

library time

is time to study at library
one more week , five more paper
wish all my friends can get good result ^^

Friday, October 30, 2009

down ,,,,,,,

下雨了, 仿佛连天空也懂得我此刻的心情, 心情好低落, 好想大哭一场。。。。。

now i at library .....
should be study now ....
but really not mood to study .....
feeling down .....
it is someone really care for me ??
i hope to hear : it is you hungry nw ? someone take care me .....
sometime don want back home ,
when back home ,
have to face many problem .......
due to parent ......
sometime always argue with dad .....
it is the way of communicate with dad just like this ??
why cannot talk easily with me ?
i really hope for family care .....
but nvr get it .....

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

exam soon .....

few more week will be final exam .....
need to study hard
i hope can better gpa for this sem
gambatei !! go go ... flighting ^^

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

holiday soon .....

next week is holiday .....
so happy ...
waiting for long time , finally can back home .....

Thursday, August 13, 2009

at last , i am lonely in this world ...........

today i am so moody ,
feel that i am lonely in this world ,
without care of family , friends and .........

last 2 week is upm H1N1 holiday ,
i am happy because can back home ,
but my mum ask me don back ,
haiz .......

last few days ,
my hp ' N81 ' finally broke up ,
cannot received and send sms ,
sometime also cannot call ,
sms is very important to me
because all people will contact me with sms ,
especially kiosk member ,
because of lack of money ,
i ask my dad , either can buy new hp for me or not ,
he say , better i don use hp ..........

why other can enjoy care of family ,
but me cannot .....

i am lonely in this world ......

Monday, August 3, 2009

H1N1 holiday

last tuesday ,
when having MA class ,
suddenly received a message ,
saying beginning tomorrow upm will close for one week ,
is a unexpected holiday ,
all my august holiday plan have to cancel because of replace ,
haiz ....

this week ,
stay at your house ,
really happy,
thank for your mum everyday prepare breakfast for me ,
n your grandmother prepare lunch and dinner for me ,

getting ordinary life with you i am happy ,
happy is based on both side not based on luxury ......

sorry if i have make you unhappy from this few days
or make you angry ....
so sorry for it .....

tomorrow have 2 test ,
so lazy to study ............
now i want sleep a while ,
study tonight ...........
gambatei for me ,
and gambatei for your assignment ............ ^^

Saturday, July 25, 2009

..................

suddenly i feel safely besides you ,
you give me the feeling i didnt have before ,
i very happy when you share everything with me ,
intro me to you friends ,
maybe now is no the time of climax in our story ,
but i hope our story can little by little without a letup ,
let our story can like a curve that upward curve , never have the day of downward .......
thank of bringing me the life i havent before ,
THANK

Monday, July 13, 2009

already opening school ...............

already second week for new semesta ,
feel very tired ,
yesterday sleep at 3 am , but have to wake up at 7 sumthin cause have class at 8 am ,
but when enter the class , lecturer didnt came in class ,
wait until 8 45 then we all go out from class ,
but that lecturer have attend class for 12 pm ,,,,
if he cannot attend class should inform us early ar
then we no need wake up so early .....
wuwu....

last friday go bbq with shyan at his sister there
thank for sister for invite me go ,
thank for shyan cause bbq for me ,
thank for ooi tee cause let us have single time together n thank for him for fecth me few time ,

i really happy when stay at shyan there ,
maybe didnt do anything special ,
but i am so happy ,
cause happy can from simply thing ,,,,,,,,

now go out PM with shyan and ooi tee ^^

Friday, June 26, 2009

Michael Jackson




据美国媒体,当地时间6月25日14时26分(北京时间26日5时26分),美国流行天王迈克尔-杰克逊在洛杉矶突发心脏病离世,终年50岁。杰克逊的哥哥在接受记者采访时说,医生们花了一个多小时来紧急抢救杰克逊,但仍然无法挽救他的生命。  

迈克尔-杰克逊的哥哥杰麦恩在接受记者采访时说,医生诊断杰克逊死于突发性心脏病,他于当地时间25日下午13时14分(北京时间26日4时14分)被紧急送往医院,包括外科医生和心脏病专家在内的医生此前已经在手术室等候,他们急救了1个小时,但未能挽救杰克逊的生命。  

迈克尔-杰克逊的家族好友布赖恩-奥克斯曼在接受记者采访时暗示,迈克尔-杰克逊突发心脏病前一直在服用医生开的处方药,很可能是滥用药物导致他突发心脏病死亡的。布赖恩-奥克斯曼说,2007年2月,39岁的《花花公子》封面女郎安娜-尼格尔-史密斯离世,她就是因为滥服药物导致心脏病突发,这一点与迈克尔-杰克逊非常类似。布赖恩-奥克斯曼说,“迈克尔-杰克逊是我的好朋友,我对于他的去世感到非常悲痛。他的亲人目前也都赶到了医院,他们由于过于伤心而不愿相信迈克尔已经死亡的事实。”  

迈克尔-杰克逊突发心脏病后被紧急送往加州大学洛杉矶分校医学中心,并在这里被医生宣布死亡。一位名叫布鲁诺- 皮尔斯的目击者说,迈克尔-杰克逊死亡的消息公布后,大批歌迷纷纷赶到这里,数量多达数百人,他们高喊着迈克尔-杰克逊的名字,很多人都在悲痛地哭泣。为防止发生意外骚乱事件,当地警方已经向加州大学洛杉矶分校医学中心加派了警力。随着时间一分一秒过去,涌入的人群也越来越多,大家都挤在迈克尔-杰克逊送医时的入口,有些人放声大哭,有些人引颈盼望,等候医院正式宣布迈克尔-杰克逊的状况,媒体采访直升机也在医院上空盘旋,许多采访车也都停放在通往医院的街道上。另外,还有不少民众拿起手机,与亲朋好友通报有关迈克尔-杰克逊的消息。  

洛杉矶警察局一位名叫格瑞戈-斯特恩克的警官说,一架直升机载着迈克尔-杰克逊的遗体离开加州大学洛杉矶分校医学中心,目前已经送往洛杉矶验尸官的办公室,并将于明天正式开始验尸。格瑞戈-斯特恩克说,警方目前正在调派最有名的专家前来检验尸体,对于这种有影响力的人物的突发死亡,验尸是非常正常的。「洛杉磯時報」(Los Angeles Times)今天搶先報導,美西時間今天中午12時30分左右,麥可傑克森在家中昏迷,家人打電話報警,急救人員抵達時,發現他已經沒有呼吸,緊急送醫陷入昏迷狀況。「美國有線電視新聞網」今天下午證實,麥可傑克森已經死亡,得年50。

消息傳出,這位男星被送急救的UCLA醫學中心外面湧來大批民眾聚集。部份好萊塢娛樂媒體報導,麥可傑克森死因為心臟驟停,但這項消息尚未得到證實。麥可傑克森1958年8月29日出生於美國印第安納州,幼年時期與哥哥們組成The Jackson 5合唱團出道,1980年代則是他歌唱事業顛峰時期。1982年,他的「戰慄」(Thriller)專輯創下年美國銷售2600萬張、全球累計狂賣 4000萬張無人能及的紀錄。1993年,在流行樂壇叱吒風雲的天王巨星麥可傑克森捲入涉嫌性侵害男童風波,雖然後來雙方在1994年以未透露數額的金錢賠償達成私下和解,但卻一直無法擺脫這起事件對他演藝事業造成的陰影。

永别了!


today morning ,
know the dead new of MJ.
suddenly i feel that life is unexpected ,
this moment you alive , next moment might not ...........
no matter rich or poor ,
one day we have to dead ,
what we leaving just corpse , bone ............
i dono when my date is came ,
i dono when i pass away have anyone sad cause me .
remember me , i dono .........
i dono now 'u' is my everything or not ,
have tt friends tell me , love is everything ,
but i scare getting hurt again ,
i really scare ......
but can i don put 'u' as everything ??
i think i cannot ,
i already put u as first , as everything .........
am my decision is right ? or wrong ?
i dono , i just hope ..............



Wednesday, June 24, 2009

keh lok si ,,,,,,,,,,,,












already long time didnt go keh lok si ,
when i seeing the great of Buddhism ,
i feel peaceful .....
human is getting war because want to fulfill self needs ,
prove their are more stronger that other ,
thousand and more people are suffer because of few people selfish ......
it is be worth ???
parent losing their children at war ......
children losing their child life , some have to involve in war .............
'BORN , OLD , SICK AND DIE' every one also will pass this four step ......
when we complaint of something , try to think those unlucky people in poor country .......
we should thank for what we have right now .............
if have the ability , help those unlucky one ............
i saw fish was swim in circular round ,
the same theory also face by human ,
if you treat someone good , someone will treat you good also ,
opposite .....
in front of Buddha , i have make few wish ........
i wish , the world is peaceful .....
i wish , my parent and friends can happy always ...........
i wish , SECRET .......................

LITTLE COTTAGE











One set meal for main dish, soup, bread with butter, tea or coffee and dessert just RM9.90 ++.
It is very cheep ???
Me and Shyan eat Chicken Chop and Black Pepper Chicken Chop …………..
Food was so delicious and good environment ……………….
The waiter serve us well …………..
Good service + delicious food = high profit

beach night .................




' shyan and jacrey ' , can see it ???


penang trip










beach night ,
tonight , weather is good ........
but less star and without present of moon .........
at paradise beach ,
many people is having bbq .......
a lot of couple enjoy the night at beach ...............
me n you playing sand at beach .......
talking your and my story ....
take photo .....
at that moment , i feel i am so well-being ........
hope i can always go anywhere you like or i like together ....
forever and forever ............. ~~












Monday, June 22, 2009

18 june ...............


" my zai zai " , cute lei !!!!


" me and zai zai "

" Shyan with zai zai "


" present from Janet "



" cute bear card "




" bear bear birthday card "





" present from my friends "




Wake up at 530 am to fetch my dad go airport ……..


Fetch Shyan at 10 am , happy to see you …………..


Go steamboat with my friends,
Thank my friends to spend time with me ,
Eat until too full ,
Talking about our life at pass time, university life and making joke …………


This year getting few present from my friends,
Cloth, chain …….
Getting one cute bear bear from Shyan , my zai zai ^^
Getting the most unexpected present from Wei Tatt ( Bird’s Nest with American Ginseng, White Fungus and Rock Sugar )

Thank for all present from my friends,
Thank for present from you,
Thank for li see (UPM course mates) for changing off day to come find me ……..
This night after 1200….. I already 21 year old, I still me, still the same me …………..







Wednesday, June 17, 2009

cannot sleep

now already 1.04 am
cannot sleep
maybe happy cause can see you
happy cause can meet my friend tomorrow night
2 more week then need back upm
feel don want back
want continue stay at home
beside parent care
without stress
i don want back .......

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

new photo
















hehe





yesterday go out with my best friends, wei tatt





taking some photo





Sunday, June 14, 2009

PIZZA HUT AND MOVIES TODAY

CUTIE ME !!


ME AND TOTONEE

enjoying mushroom soup ^^


Jacrey again ^^



Jenny




totonee again !!!






both of my cousin





pizza


























today go pizza hut with my cousins
thank my cousin for treat me pizza oh
to celebrate my 21 year old birthday
we also watch movies
firstly want watch Blood , the showing time is too late ,
so my cousin choose to watch Drag Me To Hell ,
a movies about curse .......
the story line is good and i was scare when watch this movies ,
sound effect also make me more scare but i enjoy it ,
thank my cousin .........










Saturday, June 13, 2009

Dream

today noon ,
after prepare lunch for family feel tired,
then i sleep a while,
but when i sleep ,
i have a nightmare ,
i dream i loss you ,
i really scare
scare one day , you will just like last time suddenly send sms to me say end it ,
i really scare
i don want loss you , if can forever together ...............

Friday, June 12, 2009

i don want '21' , i want '12'

today is 12 June 2009 ,
6 more day is my 21 year old birthday ,
next week will celebrate with friends ,
waiting the day coming , waiting you coming .........

'21' is the meaning of grown up , from teenage to adult ,
so must be more mature .....
study , love , future .... all in my hand ,
now must make decision myself , facing the consequence myself ,
but i believe that you will help me , will guide me ........

'12' is the year old a children became a teenage ,
that time , enjoy the fun of a children , playing all day long ,
that time, enjoy the fun of a young adult , feeling to grown up soon ,
'12' , less experience , dono the relealistic of this world ,
full of unrealitic dream about life , love , future .......
easy to fall time by time ,
but this also is the time to grown up .
to because an adult.

have many friends ask me " What your planning for future since you already 21 year old ? ",
i dono how to answer they ,
maybe i don have a plan at all , that why i answer by that ,
but now ,
i hope , i can be more mature in handle problem ,
let my family have better life at future .
can together with you forever .........
future is unpredictable but future is in own hand ...........