THIS SEM ~~~ ^^

~COOKING TIME ~

~BAKERY TIME ~

~MOONCAKE FESTIVAL~

~TENJI~

~CAMERON TRIP~

~HOUSE WARMING~

这个学期我终于搬到外面住了,

虽然有时会有小吵架, 误会,

不过这都是生活的调味,

希望往后的日子, 可以更快乐^^

final exam .......

this sem final exam ,
totally don have motivation to study ........
tmw is my AIA final exam,
even until nw , i also don have mood study ....
having exam from kindergarden until nw,
feel tired , meaningless,
i don want became 'FAST FOOD' student,
sometime think that izit upm should having exam for twice a sem,
having three exam within a sem ,
after one exam , then another few week another exam again ,
i really HATE this !!!

issues

first issue,
about my coursemate pandai kira ......
erm, i agree that he is pandai kira
but this is nt a mistake,
is his right to get what he desired to get ,
but just maybe the way he express nt suitable

second issue,
help ppl or trouble urself when help ppl ......
few of my friends say me keep trouble myself when help ppl,
say me too kind until over de,
car issue
- ya, i would borrow my car to friends or fetch they if i treat u as friend.....
-but some contribution are needed even i never mention it
- and i borrow car or fetch because i treat u as friend, not because this is my duties and responsibilities ...

third issue,
care about feeling of others ......
i admit that sometime i didnt so care about others feeling ,
(i) decision
- i dislike when decision is make without discuss with me , deemed like i nt within the group
(ii) using of place or others
- i very welcome that any1 is organise party or whatever events in our house
- but this must make sure every1 in our house is know about it and agree about this. ytd i asking one of my housemate about this, he just notice got event happen. so info others is necessary next time.
(iii) waiting issue
- sometime i also will let ppl wait, i apologize for this
- if random wait or just got reason , then i can wait with patient,
- but if alway wait because of sleep late , then i really cannot tahan lo==1

i want to say sorry if i have make any mistake
but i also hope that there r improvement at future .....

艾草

I watch this movie because i had read one blog posted about this movie.
In this movie, the mother take care her son n daughter by her self without husband.
When her son and daughter already grown up, she finger out that her son is a gay and her daughter had born a baby without married.
However, she able to accept her son and daughter time by time.
No matter what we do, but deeply inside, we are love our parents.

Sexual of children is the main issue to judge a children ?
I don think so ......
A gay or lesbian also can contribute to family and national .
A gay or lesbian also can love their parents as same as normal human being.

It is having baby without married is unaccepted ?
Especially at Asian family , the anwer was unacceptable .
But if you think deeply,
it is failure married will bring happyness to baby ?
The answer was No.
No matter how was the situation ,
In order to let the kid grown up healthy , is showing love to the kid.......

Lastly, i hope that Asian parents can be more open minded to accept their kids,
accept who their really are ,
this not only will make their kids happy but also will bring happyness to the family ........

生日。。。

今年的生日，我呆在家。。。
没有什么的庆祝，
就在家平平静静的度过，

22年来，
从未有过真正的庆生，
蛋糕，
也许对别人来说并不重要，
我没有过真正的生日蛋糕，
今天，我到pasar买所谓的菜燕蛋糕。。。
安慰自己，自欺欺人

不过还是谢谢我几位朋友，
ally , kim fong n suk hui ~ thank for send me lovely birthday card n video
desmond sim n talisha tan ~ thank for birthday gift
thank from those friends send me greeting at facebook and sms

当心情不好，喝酒是容易醉的~~~

刚才，我和几个朋友去喝啤酒，
这是第一次，
当我刚喝1瓶啤酒，
我觉得醉了..........
喝酒是容易醉的~~~原来心情不好时喝酒是容易醉的~~~
往事，过去的种种，会不会再重复？
好怕， 我好害怕~~~

相信或不相信吗？

我已经累了，希望不要再次受伤....
我的朋友告诉我，
我们的自我保护的最好办法是，我们只是把50％的感觉在友谊和爱情.....
另外50％保持我们的心里面，别人会伤害我们....
在现实生活中，当我们越来越认识的朋友和爱人，我们往往会成为盲人，也许直到有百分之百的信任我们的朋友和爱人，最后被别人伤害.....

在这个时刻，
我不知道我可以相信某些人或不相信
在过去的日子，我都选择相信一些人，
不过，后来我受到伤害，
我真的害怕再次受伤害......

希望......
我不敢有希望.....
希望的相反的是伤害，
我真的恐慌，

经过1年半，
甚至认为我的伤已经恢复，
但我确实害怕，受到伤害的感觉.......
相信或不相信吗？
我选择相信.....
希望我的决定是正确的......

一段不能公开的感情会永久？

今天，我和我的朋友讨论这个话题....
一段不能公开的感情会永久？
可以信任呢？
突然，我不知道如何回答他，
在爱情的世界，我有尝试和失败几次，
...我同意这种关系是情侣之间的事，
快乐或不快乐是情人之间的事情，
但一些行动涉及别人的一部分，
例如，让其他知道谁是你的爱人是重要的，
这是不是显示出来，
但它带来深深的意思是，
这是关于安全感。。。。。。
让你的恋人有归属感....
让你的爱人要注意，你很认真的关系...
同意吗？

holiday

already back hometown for 6 day,
nothing much can do,
i just watch drama and movie at room.
my laptop already broke, causes me cannot online at room,
if i need online , i need to cyber cafe.....
cyber cafe .... in that place, i can see different style of human.....
some was playing online game, such as dota
some just same as me, just suft internet and chatting
within cc, we have own world without interrupt others,
some of my friends ask me , why i don want work during holiday ?
yes, if i want work , i can easily get job.
however, i choose to start at home...
because if i work , time i spend at home will less n less.....
i want accompany my parent during holiday ... since i not around due to study .......
holiday .... i wish to have wonderful holiday ^^

小故事

小故事一 ]
　　一头猪、一只绵羊和一头奶牛，被牧人关在同一个畜栏里。有一天，牧人将猪从畜栏里捉了出去，只听猪大声号叫，强烈地反抗。绵羊和奶牛讨厌它的号叫，于是抱怨道：“我们经常被牧人捉去，都没像你这样大呼小叫 的。”猪听了回应道：“捉你们和捉我完全是两回事，他捉你们，只是分你们的毛和乳汁，但是捉住我，却是分我的命啊！”
　　立场不同，所处环境不同的人，是很难了解对方的感受的。因此，对他人的失意、挫折和伤痛，我们应进行换位思考，以一颗宽容的心去了解，关心他人。

[小故事二 ]
　　你是你，我是我，你不是我，我不是你，但你把我当成你，我把你当成我，这样就换了位，再思考一下……
　　一对夫妇做车去游山，半途中下车。听说后来车上其余的乘客没有走多远，就遇到了小山崩塌，结果全部丧命。女人说：咱们真幸运，下车下的及时。男人说：不，是由于咱们的下车，车子停留，耽误了他们的行程。不然，就不会在哪个时刻恰巧经过山崩的地点了…… 换位思考的实质,就是设身处地为他人着想,即想人所想,理解至上.人与人之间少不了谅解,谅解是理解的一个方面,也是一种宽容.我们都有被"冒犯","误解"的时候,如果对此耿耿于怀,心中就会有解不开的"疙瘩";如果我们能深入体察对方的内心世界,或许能达成谅解.一般说来,只要不涉及原则性问题,都是可以谅解的.谅解是一种爱护,一种体贴,一种宽容,一种理解!!

人是自私的???

有几个朋友告诉我, 人是自私的~~~

我承认在某些方面人是自私的,
例如,在爱情上,付出并不是无私的,
付出的同时, 我们总希望得到对方,就是自私.......


几天前,
上英文时,
有个同学迟到, 可是要求我让她先, 她说我自私, 不让她,
可是她有没想过,如果她自私,她就不会无理取闹........

我也是有自私的时候,
在爱情上, 在友情上.........

人自私不自私是个人的看过........

untitle

today feel what to write blog in chinese
but when start to write it, figure out alot of pinyin i don know,
what a failure chinese people.........

today view someone facebook,
disclover that person have change alot,
change from inside...... some how happy for that person......
last time i got love that person so much,
hate that person so much,
but today i can view that person facebook
just like viewing straighter profile, without any feel of love or hate .........

today i disclover that what buddism say what correct,
all love, hate , wants and needs just ILLUSION.
all will end of one day ......
the best way is let it go......
who know ... maybe one day u all seeing me at temple as SAMI .....

现在我很幸福

他的手掌有种粗糙的体贴,

他在我需要时候出现身边,

被你伤的那些,崩溃眼泪,

多亏他无私的奉陪,

哪天要是和你真的再见面,

谁都不要再提醒那一段从前,

有些事不面对,

反而安心安全,

你无权再动摇我的世界,

现在我有了幸福,有人照顾,应该知足,你不像他,从不让我哭,

可是我越想投入,越是生疏,抱的再紧,依旧止不住那流失的温度,

现在我不停忙碌,不断让步,想看清楚,你不像他,把我当成全部,

可是爱有时善良,有时残酷,我要如何,爱他像爱你那样义无反顾,

哪天要是和你真的再见面,

我不会提到最後和他的一切,

面对不爱的人,我终於谅解了,

曾经你用无言画的句点,

现在我有了幸福,有人照顾,应该知足,你不像他,从不让我哭,

可是我越想投入,越是生疏,抱的再紧,依旧止不住那流失的温度,

现在我不停忙碌,不断让步,想看清楚,你不像他,把我当成全部,

可是爱有时善良,有时残酷,我要如何,爱他像爱你那样义无反顾

2.30 am of 5 feb 2010

now should be the time to sleep, resting myself,
actually i feel tired but i don want to sleep,
within this few day,
read few person blog saying about true friend/ best friend,
in my world,
i can say don have friend that can share everything,
i will keep some part of myself, example my sadness, my feeling,
maybe i cannot trust people or maybe i lazy to say it out ???
recently i have slowly try to express myself to my friends,
i alway call my friends don think too much,
but i was the person alway think too much,
think about pass, present and future..............

打开窗，望着夜空那淡淡的星光，呼吸着清凉的空气，眼前的一切是那么的自然,那么的美好,那么的纯净，在这样宁静的夜晚永远不会有白昼的喧嚣，我不会觉得辛苦更不会觉得虚伪，在这样清凉的夜晚我的心是火热的，我会觉得孤单却不会感到悲伤,只有在这样宁静清凉的夜晚我才会放松下来，也只有这个时刻我才可以做回自己。

valentine day

14 th of february is valentine day ,
but i never have proper valentine with my love one........
nvr got the chance to try how the feel to celebrate valentine day ......
getting supprise .......
this year valentine day at cny ...
probably just sleep at home ... haiz

夜夜夜夜

想问天你在那里
我想问问我自己
一开始我聪明
结束我聪明聪明的
几乎的毁掉了我自己
想问天问大地
或著是迷信问问宿命
放弃所有
抛下所有
让我飘流在安静的夜夜空里
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑, 慢慢的拼凑,
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑,慢慢的拼凑,
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
想问天问大地
或著是迷信问问宿命
放弃所有
抛下所有
让我飘流在安静的夜夜空里
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑,慢慢的拼凑
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑,慢慢的拼凑
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑,慢慢的拼凑,
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
我不愿再放纵,
我不愿每天每夜每秒飘流,
也不愿再多问再多说再多求我的梦,
我不愿再放纵,
我不愿每天每夜每秒飘流,
也不愿再多问再多说再多求我的梦.......................................

22.01.10

I back to UPM almost one month.
This sem, i feel that no motivation to study, tired of study.......
What the reason ?
Maybe now we study just like 'TONG SAMPAH', have to put everything in short time,
after the sem, i feel that learn less........

However, this sem let me getting close to few friends,
Kim Fang, my mushroom mum, a girl that wish to have simple life in this complex world.......
Shek Hui, a girl that will think so much, negatively and positively...........

In this sem,
i involve myself to Yin Zi Music Club,
hope that i can learn new things and getting more friends.......

Within this few days,
i think much about my pass time,
when i was child , was teenages, was study until now...........
if time can back to pass time,
i hope that i can be more dare to tell other how i feel ,
what i really want ......

Last few day, my dad call me and tell me about C.L. secondary school student dead case,
human life is unexpected,
maybe this moment you still at this world, but the next moment you already pass away,
what we can do is appro.. with what we have , treat our parents and friends well.......
based on buddha theory, human will reborn after dead,
but the true we willnot know...
so what can i do is make useful of my life .......

new hair style

just change new hair style ?
it is nice ?

friends

Today happen one thing that make me notice the important of friends.
Sometimes i will heard few of friends say that friendship was a tool, tool to use each other.
It is true ?
As Charles say, friend are helping each other, NOT using each other.
I totally agree with he because if you hate someone, then you will not try to help he/she.
So can say that we just help those are friends or close to us.
Friend that just can share happyness but not sadness are NOT true friend.
When i still study at primary school , can say that i don have friend at all.
Until now, i also have less friends. I know the reason is because of my personality.
When form 6 , i get few best friends,
At UPM, thank god that let me know some much friends,
get the chance to learn and grown up .
THANK

on diet plan ..............

second day of on diet,
very hungry now but cannot eat ....
gambateh
19 more days .....
flight