夜夜夜夜

想问天你在那里
我想问问我自己
一开始我聪明
结束我聪明聪明的
几乎的毁掉了我自己
想问天问大地
或著是迷信问问宿命
放弃所有
抛下所有
让我飘流在安静的夜夜空里
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑, 慢慢的拼凑,
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑,慢慢的拼凑,
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
想问天问大地
或著是迷信问问宿命
放弃所有
抛下所有
让我飘流在安静的夜夜空里
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑,慢慢的拼凑
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑,慢慢的拼凑
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑,慢慢的拼凑,
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我
我不愿再放纵,
我不愿每天每夜每秒飘流,
也不愿再多问再多说再多求我的梦,
我不愿再放纵,
我不愿每天每夜每秒飘流,
也不愿再多问再多说再多求我的梦.......................................

22.01.10

I back to UPM almost one month.
This sem, i feel that no motivation to study, tired of study.......
What the reason ?
Maybe now we study just like 'TONG SAMPAH', have to put everything in short time,
after the sem, i feel that learn less........

However, this sem let me getting close to few friends,
Kim Fang, my mushroom mum, a girl that wish to have simple life in this complex world.......
Shek Hui, a girl that will think so much, negatively and positively...........

In this sem,
i involve myself to Yin Zi Music Club,
hope that i can learn new things and getting more friends.......

Within this few days,
i think much about my pass time,
when i was child , was teenages, was study until now...........
if time can back to pass time,
i hope that i can be more dare to tell other how i feel ,
what i really want ......

Last few day, my dad call me and tell me about C.L. secondary school student dead case,
human life is unexpected,
maybe this moment you still at this world, but the next moment you already pass away,
what we can do is appro.. with what we have , treat our parents and friends well.......
based on buddha theory, human will reborn after dead,
but the true we willnot know...
so what can i do is make useful of my life .......

new hair style

just change new hair style ?
it is nice ?

friends

Today happen one thing that make me notice the important of friends.
Sometimes i will heard few of friends say that friendship was a tool, tool to use each other.
It is true ?
As Charles say, friend are helping each other, NOT using each other.
I totally agree with he because if you hate someone, then you will not try to help he/she.
So can say that we just help those are friends or close to us.
Friend that just can share happyness but not sadness are NOT true friend.
When i still study at primary school , can say that i don have friend at all.
Until now, i also have less friends. I know the reason is because of my personality.
When form 6 , i get few best friends,
At UPM, thank god that let me know some much friends,
get the chance to learn and grown up .
THANK

on diet plan ..............

second day of on diet,
very hungry now but cannot eat ....
gambateh
19 more days .....
flight

31/12/09 ~~~ 01/01/10

31/12/09
go count down at sungai wang with friends,
really happy at the moment,
thank guys..............

01/01/09
reach my room about 5 am of the morning,
after bath ,
facebooking a while then go sleep , wake up at 1030 am .
suddenly feel down ,
i feel that my life is loss of something ?
what it is ?
can any1 tell me ?

government service

What the first impression of malaysia government service ?
The answer is ' SLOW, SLOW and SLOW '.
When citizens of our country go to government department, need to wait for long time to their turn.
At university also exist the same problem.
When beginning of new sem, we need to register our courses according to our planning and time table.
The problem exist when the group of specific courses provide by faculty are not enough to fulfill our need.
Example, group for management accounting course should be open for 4 class, but the faculty just open 2 class.
With the problem, students need to waste time go faculty office require open for new class. Sometimes, we have to wait half hour or one hour.
It is the faculty should plan early ? forecast how many students will take the paper and how many classes should be open ?
FACULTY OF ECONOMICS AND MANAGEMENT, it is should be more expert in planning and controlling ? but the fact is no ........
Anything problems is officer of faculty are not well prepared, when students refence to they. They didnt give correct answer to students. Sometime they will just say : " i don know about that" or " this problem not under us , please go for other department".
When you go another department suggest by officer, that department will answer " those are not under our authority, please ask your faculty office".
SHIT, the purpose of form office should able help students but now is give more troublems to students.
CLEANLY SEPARATE AUTHORITY BETWEEN DEPARTMENT - an concept in manegement , but how many government agency that able to do that ?
UPM try to get higher level by ACEDEMIC PERFORMANCE AUDIT that hope all students know that the visions, missions and objectives of UPM. But those target willnt achieve if the service of university didnt improve.
Talk about that, i was thinking about 'JAMUAN' at university.
Within one sem, we can see that those JAMUAN around faculty and hostel level. Those money should be use for other purpose.
Example is improve computer system, buying new book and material at library, improve uspot services, or maybe use to give scholarship to students.
As my opinion, government service was represent our country. So government should improve it time by time.